I'm unsure about my decision to come to Nebraska. Before I left, I thought it would be exactly what I needed, but the trip itself was one long day with only my thoughts, and today was spent helping Grandma rather than being helped by someone. It wasn't until this evening when Kay picked me up that I found any relief. Being here isn't comfortable like I thought it would be. It's not home anymore. So much has changed in two years, but it's not just that. It feels lonelier, smaller, foreign, but it's probably me. I want to be enveloped, but all there seems to be here is space.
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One Year Ago Today: