I'm feeling pretty disappointed in myself, even though I'm doing more than before. I can't seem to get past what I haven't done. I think I put too much on my plate to start. Or maybe I just need to learn to be happy with the progress I do make.

I've done the hygiene stuff every day. Sometimes the morning stuff actually happens after noon because of the napping, but it does happen. I missed water one day. I didn't go to or do yoga today, but I will do it Friday when I would have had a day off. So I'm on target with that. I'm not throwing it all away becasue some things aren't working.

What isn't working really bothers me though. I'm not doing the work part of my day. No laundry or cleaning, and that makes me feel very guilty, ashamed, and lazy. It's not fair to John or the family. It's my job now, and I'm simply not doing it. That's really wrong, so it's pretty hard to get excited about washing my face and brushing my teeth. I have got to make that doctor's appointment tomorrow.

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