He hasn't been physically interested in me in over a week, no matter how I look or what I do. I've hung all over him a couple times. Nothing. This afternoon I wrote a nice seven-page letter, telling him what I loved about him and how he makes me happy. No comment. He's ultra-defensive about when he goes out and how nothing happened Saturday (I didn't accuse him of anything). He reveals this indecision about our marriage. I don't know what else to think. He's avoiding me more than ever now. It's heartbreaking.

Again, I'm hoping for the best. It's all I can do. He obviously doesn't want to talk anymore. I have to hope eventually he will tell me what I can do to make him happy and what I do that annoys him. I asked for both in my letter. Until then, I'm adrift.

He came up from downstairs a while ago and hasn't come to see me. He probably doesn't want to come in here, because he's afraid we'll argue more or discuss things he doesn't want to talk about. I've resolved not to argue. I'm just going to listen. I'll answer questions. I won't provoke him. I will truly listen and contemplate what he has to say. It's all about him right now.

He just came in here, so I'll see if he has anything to say.

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