How can I be so damn miserable? I would have to end up getting in a funk when John leaves. I haven't done anything except weed and feed the lawn today. And that's for four days. Four days, and I spent an hour on the lawn. Oh, and I cleared off the coffee table today too. Woo.
It's hard not to start getting down on myself when I'm being so lazy. Instead of dwelling on it, I really need to look at why and come up with a way to stop. But God, I'm tired of working so hard to be positive. Sometimes it takes everything I have just to battle the negativity. I'm that sick.
Tomorrow is "Take Your Child to Work Day," so I'm going to keep Booie home, and we're going to do what I should do in a normal day. That's the plan anyway. I'm going to make myself a schedule, so I actually have a change. Just a list won't do. I gotta schedule tomorrow. Hammy will be going to school as usual. I think he'll learn more there.
I did print my daily checklists out, not that I've done them. It's a start though. Maybe with that and the other little steps I've made, I can get back up again. It will start witht he schedule.
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